Because not all of us want to wear beige…
It's been a while. Four months to be precise. I've not really felt like sitting down to write. The death of a loved one is a rollercoaster that no one can ever prepare you for. I amaze myself if I can string a sentence together, let alone function as a normal adult, but here we… Continue reading She bangs the drums
I am one of those people who regrets nothing, or at least very little in my life. All the choices that I made led me to where I am now. Except that I am now sitting with a massive regret. Let's have a history lesson first... In May 1999, I started a new job in… Continue reading Regret…
I think we can tell what this blog is going to be about, can't we? I've woken up this morning to the news that the orange one has bombed Iran... I haven't written for a while, to be honest; I haven't been in the mood. My mental health has taken a dip after a series… Continue reading Two Tribes – Carnage Mix
Those of you who are of a certain age might remember this track. Perhaps the finest track on Scoundrel Days... This song held a lot of meaning for me when I was younger, and I never really understood why. Now, nearly forty years after its release, I think I know why... I tried to talk… Continue reading The Weight of the Wind
Two blogs in quick succession means I have a lot to say, right? Maybe... This one is probably just more of an update than anything useful or thought provoking to be honest. Shall we dive in? Family Some of you will know that I am surrounded by cancer. Both my parents have cancer as does… Continue reading Ordinary World
Right from the start this has a trigger warning. This blog is going to talk about self-harm. So if that's not for you, then please scroll on. No hard feelings. I promise! First things first; self-harm, for me, is not just about the obvious. The teenagers who are suffering from existential angst. It's so much… Continue reading Hurt
Following on from my last post about sex and fantasy, I thought we'd go one step further with a trip around gender; or at least my take on it! I don't want to get into a debate on trans rights. I am a firm ally, that is all you need to know. A lot appears… Continue reading Walk on the Wildside
This blog has been in my head for 15 months. It's going to cover topics around sex, fantasy and other things which some people might not want to read about. This is your chance to step away... If not? Then let's go on a magic carpet ride... I need to start by saying that I… Continue reading China Doll
I am on a roll, another blog in less than a week; and another one that really needed to get out of my head. This one is potentially one of the hardest ones that I have birthed, but my CBT sessions are making me think more about how I react to events around me. The… Continue reading Just leave me alone…
This blog has been literally haunting me for a few days now. It's kept me awake for two nights, and as much as I am trying to fight it, it's time for it to be birthed, so to speak. You know that I am on a roll with these song titles. This could be one… Continue reading Changes
Not Middle Aged 